Tuesday, November 14th, 2006
|
|
5:31 pm - so update?
|
ummm lets see..
i relapsed.
it was fucking retarded because i could have made it through the night without drinking but no i just had to be a stingy little bitch and waste my 4 months i had.
what ever.
so yea.
im sober again?
2 days..
my motivation is gone.
haha.
everyone is like you are so calm about it.
and i am.
what is there to be excited or upset about.. i did it and its like over.
i like someone and yea.
bah i dunno what to think really?
i guess things'll work out if they are supposed to.
:]
ummm and yea.
just living life :]
kay.bye.
<3
current mood:  calm
|
|
(comment on this)
|
|
Thursday, October 12th, 2006
|
|
2:37 pm - umm update.
|
its been like ages since i was on this.
ummmm.. i have 3 months sober..
there are some pros and cons..
like... im starting to understand people better.
i get along with my mom like a best friend.
i have a better relationship with my horsey.
but yea......
ummmmm im bored alot.
im not as happy as i should be alot.
and a bunch of other pointless bullshit.
oh one being how i gained weight.
wtf.
so yea.
um sobriety.
but yea.
guys suck.
la de da.
bye.
current mood:  indifferent
current music: uhhhhh nothing
|
|
(comment on this)
|
|
Tuesday, June 27th, 2006
|
|
10:44 pm - reflections
|
Im in "one of those moods" as Ashlee would say.. reflecting on lame stuff. UMMM.. currently going through the every other week "quitting stages".. i could probably write a book on the second thoughts involved with continued drug use. lmfao. i don't care tho.. thats just me. Ummmm.. lately i've been more and more comfortable with myself and who i am .. my concerns with my weight have even started to ease up. Hmmmm.. I went to church on sunday with Jackie.. i realized how much i missed it! I absaloutley love singing with all the other teens and knowing that everything is ok for that bit of time.. its a good feeling. In about 19 days i am going to church camp.. i have an overwhelming excitement for some good clean fun!.. Other than that.. that guy i mentioned before is chill.. im not gonna go into detail though.. watever watever. Hmmm so yea the month of July will be a real progress month i am excited! Thats pretty much all.. i was just in a thoughtful lonli ish mood hahhaha. Watevs.
night.
< 3
xoxo
ariel
current mood:  thoughtful
current music: ever the same- cold play
|
|
(comment on this)
|
|
Thursday, June 15th, 2006
|
|
8:28 pm - all smiles.. mostly
|
Well.. tomorrow is my LAST day of sophmore year.
CREEPY to think that i will be a JUNIOUR.
it is going to be a fun day i suspect tho.. spending it with the guy that makes me smile the most and fill up with giggles when i see his face.
GAH.. ::dork::
sorry ok..
so today was fun.. NOT at all what i expected.. BUT FUN!
not everything worked out.. but it will.. in time.
Um... so i think im doing REALLY well on finals.. which means good grades and a happy dad!
Thank god.. finally!
hmmm so yea life has turned itself around once again and i am a an overjoyed girl.
lots of love to give.. and a good amount to recieve.
haha
im gonna keep it on the optomistic side and hope things keep going this way for a while.
:D
dhfgkjdhfg
< 3
bye
current mood:  jubilant
current music: warning sign-cold play
|
|
(comment on this)
|
|
Sunday, June 11th, 2006
|
|
6:47 pm - dsugfjhsdgf count down.
|
so i have 3 days left of my sophmore year.
i could not be happier..
this year was fun and i met alot of fun wonderful people but im ready for the relaxation of summer!
bahhh...
so um i miss him.
like crazy.
haha :: dork::
oh yea im in english right now.. just FYI
soooo yea.
i've been clean since saturday O.O
cool eh?
yea ima do it till friday...
then i'll have a celebratory weekend!
djfgkhdfhg
uh thats all.
damn this was a pointless entry.
current mood:  anxious
current music: uh mr.pap has the soccer game on
|
|
(2 comments | comment on this)
|
|
Saturday, June 10th, 2006
|
|
11:17 pm - gahh
|
sooo everything is going pretty damn peachy.
im just driving myself crazy over nothing.. lmfao having fits about wanting to be clean and then five minutes later doing a line.
yea but watever thats just me.
>.>
haha i can't keep a fkn promise to myself hahaha.
so um yea i miss having a counselor to talk to.. i also miss having a best friend that i can tell anything to and kno they won't tell a soul.
[basically i miss ashlee]
lmfao ummmmmm.....
so yea today was ok for one reason only .. otherwise it was depressing and dreary.
yucky saturdayxcore.
ummm but this is just turning out to be a bunch of complaints.. which is not what i was aiming for... sooo i will stop here.
my life is perfect compared to most!! :D
current mood:  determined
current music: Fort minor
|
|
(comment on this)
|
|
Tuesday, April 4th, 2006
|
|
9:46 pm - hmmmm wats up
|
blahhhh
idk im frusterated yet happy.
i as always want a boyfriend to hold.cuddle.laugh.smile.dance with.
and i have one in mind
and hes fun.not fkn sXe.cute.chill.great.
buuttttt
idk if hes interested.
he as everyone else.. just got out of a relationship/
lame much. soooo yea.. idk wat to do.. tell him? he seems kinda interested.
who knows?
gjkdfhgjhdfg
blah but then again.. i have fun being single too.. cuz then i can be with whoever i want and not worry about it.
O.o
hmmm im worried about ashlee leaving school.. like who im gonna chill with at lunch..
plenty of options..but none that stand out.
soo yea.. im excited for spring break. fked up much.
yea its gonna be chillll.
i've been hanging with jessa and all those girlies a whole bunch and its an amazing amount of fun yea.
so the whole friend situation worked out..
now lets see wat else i can work out.
RAWWW
i also miss kurumi more than words can describe.. but im trying not to put much thought into it.. i just end up crying when i do.. so yea.. im not gonna recap wats goin on there.. i just miss her.. too much to live with.
yea. well im gonna go..
umm so yea KAY bye.
<333
ariel
current mood: content
current music: grand theft auttumm.. fallout boy much
|
|
(comment on this)
|
|
Sunday, April 2nd, 2006
|
|
12:45 am - FKN POINTLESS PIECE OF SHIT
|
im an unstable waste of oxxygen.
i havent foundd my poitn of existnece here on eath yet?
O WELL
MAYBE TGERE ISNT ONE!
<3
current mood:  crazy
current music: I HAD A BAD DAY
|
|
(2 comments | comment on this)
|
|
Saturday, March 4th, 2006
|
|
10:02 am - OMFG
|
Im out of my fuckin game
do i start a new one
or go back
or wat!?
IM BOOOOR3D
and i have like no freee time anymore
and AHHHH
::panics::
::needs to party::
fuck
lame
ok
bye
>_<
<3
arielllll
current mood: contemplative
current music: your'e beautiful-james bluzzzunt
|
|
(comment on this)
|
|
Sunday, February 12th, 2006
|
|
10:47 am - SOOOO..
|
yea .. um yesterday i went up to Hollywood with my daddy and dropped off Ally's phone. blah it sucked tho cuz i ran up and gave it to Maddily but i wanted to stay and chat.. fuck being grounded haha i miss those gurls :-(. ANYWHO...yea so then my daddy and i went to lunch at this mexican food place it was DELICIOUS but i truthfully felt the most full i have felt in about 3 months.. it was awful >_<. ummmm. and then we went to Buffalo Exchange and shopped till we dropped.. then to Melrose where we met with Barian, my photographer, he is REALLY nice and informative , im excited to work with him :-D.. we talked about Auto modeling agency.. and blah blah.. all this other stuff.. then we went shopping again.. made our way to Cosmos and caught up with him. So it was a pretty dang fun day. But like idk.. i think its gonna be like last weekend.. no hanging out with friends. :-( ugh... my social life is like X_X right now.. so much to do. >_< RAWR. ummm but yea.. im just trying to stay on top of the important things.. grades..taking care of my weight and health...dance..and my horse..along with chores.. so watever free time i have i will make the most of it with my friends. :-\ hmph.
ummm but yea i miss everyone.
alot.
so i think tonight i will see what is going on.
:-D
until then .. ttyl!
<3
ariel
current mood:  busy
current music: pink floyd-dont need no education
|
|
(1 comment | comment on this)
|
|
Thursday, February 9th, 2006
|
|
8:45 pm - life at its weirdest.
|
.. well there was that guy
the one i liked alot.
that was EXTREMELY respectful..sweet..cute.. fun
the one i was too young and tall for
.. hmph
there was this girl that got her hopes up
tried to prepare herself..
knowing something was up
she wasn't prepared
she got hurt.
FUCK
im done for now.. guys are assholes as far as im concerened
this'll change.. but im allowed to be a bit upset .. right?
of course.
well today sucked.
i went to first period ( PE )
.. cried.
went to starbucks with ashlee and got an AMAZING strawberrys and creme frappacino
along with a blueberry scone to cure my puffy eyes with its yumminess
then we went and took pictures in the bathroom
they came out pretty damn cute.
then i waitied for brandon... he didnt show up haha
so ummm tomorrow im seeing him i think?
lolzz
basically i feel like i was in a race and suddenly i got left behind with everyone rushing ahead.
i stopped everything.. knowing if he did like me it would make him happy.
fuck that
but im not gonna do anything still..
cuz i feel better about myself.. i can think clearly knowing that i dont have anything that may be altering my thoughts.
its a fabulous and reassuring feeling.
i went to dance tonight... it was amazing.. it was the intermmediate class.. and i thought i would suck tonight due to all thats on my mind but i wizzed through every jump.
IT WAS FANTASTIC!
so im gonna move on from this little road block.
i have a feeling things are gonna get really odd pretty soon.
im opptomistic to if its going to be good!
o well i guess i will just hope for the best.
>_<
well i just got everything off my mind
ttyl
< 3
ariel
current mood:  indescribable
current music: tell me something good- the rocket summer
|
|
(3 comments | comment on this)
|
|
Sunday, January 29th, 2006
|
|
11:47 am - AHHH O_O
|
LOLZZ
dude my LJ has major mood swings... let me recap on the last three days... well friday there was an amazingly fun party at Raevens.. lol just amazing... yea and FUN.... and lets see, after everyone awakened from their little dream lands.. santi and vincent left :-( and ummmmm... then me and raeven departed and headed up to hollywood for the day.. at that point we hung out with Maddily and Ashlyn and then went to dinner at the rainbow, later deciding a sleepover was the best idea. So we lugged everyone back to Raeven's house and had a Candle launching party... not going to go into detail.. but it was fun. UMMMM.. and yea so now im sittin here.. on Raeven's floor.. slightly caught up on sleeping. Later today idk wats goin on but yea. HA LEA LU YA for the last two three? days :-D
yay!
<3
ARIEL
current mood:  grateful
current music: birds outside..
|
|
(comment on this)
|
|
Friday, January 27th, 2006
|
|
6:54 am - FUCK YESTERDAY
|
it sucked
* im pretty sure i failed my english final
* im getting sick
* i started my DOT
* my sister left for rehab.
* i found out i half another month of PE
* i probably cant get my hair done
* i had a SHITTY time at dance.
* got in a HUGE fight with my mom ( dont say i cant dance)
* THEN .. i got my hopes up again.. i really SHOULD stop doing that.
FUCK YESTERDAYS EVENTS
today better be good
:-(
hmmph
<3
EW that was a lot of complaing
but this was the best place to vent.
sorry
:-(
UMMMMM
I WILL BE A HAPPY KID
promise
:-X
current mood:  irritated
current music: THE STUPIDEST PHIL COLLINS SONG EVER
|
|
(1 comment | comment on this)
|
|
Thursday, January 26th, 2006
|
|
7:06 am - LALALALALAAAAAAAA
|
i dont know
im in a good mood n shit
.. altho my sister is leaving today
which makes me want to like hide in a closet and cry
but yea she will be back in about a month.
so its not TOO long :-(
ummmmm
today we get out early
AKA .. i think we shoudl all do something ( my friends)
yaya
okkkkk
psh we should have done tbm today lol
WEEE
and my dance classss tonight :-D
its the hard one tho..
so yea >_<
not really looking forward to being the beginner kid again.
lmfao
anyways ima go.. study for the english final n shit
<3
bye kids
ariel
current mood:  hopeful
current music: taking back sunday
|
|
(comment on this)
|
|
Wednesday, January 25th, 2006
|
|
6:58 pm - ...yea
|
uh lots on my mind..
* my sister [kurumi] is leaving tomorrow for rehab :-( UGH
* does he like me or not? SOOOO confused
* am i stopping all the powders.. or just tweak?
* should i do some on saturday?
* FINALS ARE ANNOYING.. alls i do is studdddy :-(
* i had fun with my horse <3 nice and relaxing
* i think i gained weight >_>
* how much should i really weigh?
* im pretty happy about all my friends.. they are all getting along wonderfully.
* im ECSTATIC about point .. its gonna be amazing..
* this weekend will be fun >_<
yea so i don't know.. just confused i guess..
haha as always!
:-D woo
lol
ok well yea thats pretty much it
<333
ariel
current mood: calm
current music: The postal service
|
|
(comment on this)
|
|
Monday, January 23rd, 2006
|
|
9:31 pm - DUDE
|
yea i just stood at the mirror for wat 5675678min trying to figure out wat the hell is wrong with me
mixed vibes.. hXc.
im confused
help.
:-(
silly boys.
<3
current mood:  confused
current music: night train-gnr
|
|
(2 comments | comment on this)
|
|
|
3:58 pm - ummmm
|
ok yea
ew im getting all o_o at my weight again.
LAMEXCORE
hahahahhaa i need something to focus on besides how i loooooooooooooooooooook.
SO GIMME SOMETHING NOW...
omg.. ok so sat. i hung with all of brooklynn's friends
santi
vincent
sandy
alvin
andrew
edward
YA YA
it was an amazing time.
thats all im gonna say..well and this
i like someone
alot
o_o
anywayyyyys moving on..
FINALS ARE HERE
woooo
it sucks ass but w/e
im going to dance in an hour and a half.
then MAYBE stay the night with raeven
like old times..
it'll be cute n shit < 3
dude so.. this one friend of mine
IS BEING REALLY WIERD..
AND NEEDS TO STOP NOW
CUZ IM CONFUSED..
moving on.
UMMM I MISS KURUMI.
badddddd
she may be going to rehab this week
and i NEED to see her.
cuz i will die if i dont :-(.
UMMM and this weekend the WHOLE gang is hanging out :-D
yay!
OK UMM BYE
<3
Ariel
current mood: anxious
current music: wish you were here-pink floyd
|
|
(comment on this)
|
|
Friday, January 20th, 2006
|
|
8:31 am - ewww
|
so yea...
me n raeven didn't end up going to Boomers yesterday..
so we went to her casa and made the most amazing cupcakes EVER.
i ate too much tho..
im still not un-full its nasty
so ima start dieting again. so i'll be like :D like i used to be.
mmhmmm
WOOOO
its called the eat when i want .. small stuff diet.
idk im bored.
i pulled my thigh muscle a few dance classes ago..
and its left me with a heating pad between my legs >_<
haha
weeee
dance was fun last night.. challenging but fun.
soooo im going to school in like .. 20 min. cuz i stayed up till 1130 last night doing homework and was tired this morning.
and yea.
so umm finals are approaching quickly.. its freaking me the hell out cuz i have so much to do stil.. >_<
LAME
but yea thats pretty much all..
:D
anyways ummm BYE!
<3
Ariel
current mood:  full
current music: i will melt with you
|
|
(comment on this)
|
|
Wednesday, January 18th, 2006
|
|
8:30 pm - idk
|
so yea..
im just sorta blah right now.
Mim really focusing on getting my finals stuff done.
i am studying like crazy -_-
im tired
im sore
ew
im [feeling] fat
yea yea..
so ummm once finals are over things will be better i guess.
boomers tomorrow with raeven and whoever the hell else is going?
idk?
haha.
uhhh
yea so.. i talked to my dad again about independent studies..and how if i don't go i am doomed to lonership at shcool cuzz everyone is leaving LAMEXCORE..
so yea.. he kinda is thinking about it now.
i need a break again.
..ew i sound so complainy..
haha
SORRY
jghfdghdhf g
lol.. really im ok.. compared to some :-D
< 3
ariel
current mood:  blank
current music: whiskey lullaby--allison krauss
|
|
(4 comments | comment on this)
|
|
Tuesday, January 17th, 2006
|
|
6:43 pm - fuck that
|
emoness fuckin sucks..
so i went to the park today with ashlee.. and we talked..
tweak was brought up.. WAT IS THIS THE THIRD TIME!?
I am such a fuckin dumb shit.. im really frusterated with myself.
its not even funny.
shes fuckin leaving my school.
raeven is fuckin leaving.
so im left with rachelle and jackie -_-
im not even that good of friends with them.
like i love them and all.. but WAT HAPPENED.
i just have great friends ripped from me left and right.
its horrid.
im pissed at everything about me right now.
i just was to stop this shit and be me.
happy old me without tweak.
but i love it.
:-(
AHHHH
annoyingXcore
no one respects me like before.
its wierd.
watever.
help may be needed?
who knows.
i will try once more to stop..
here we go!
<3
ariel
current mood:  aggravated
current music: angel pumping gas-postal service
|
|
(3 comments | comment on this)
|
|
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small}
star_strukk's journal